When Life Gets You Down

Just turn that frown upside down.

Sometimes I feel bad for not blogging, I'm sure I'm not the only one, but then I remember that I blog for me.
I do try to keep up with other people's blogs as often as possible.
It feels like this small community and while I'm not entirely close or exchange weekly emails with some of you, /i still feel like I have friends in different parts of the world.

I don't really know where I am going with this, but let me just say that no, I did not drop off the face of the Earth these past few weeks.

Sometimes I just get into funks and I need to take a break from everything and focus on myself again.
I lose myself often.
I lose myself in my relationship, in my social life, in my family and in my work.
But while having a heart to heart with The Boy a couple week back, I explained this to him and he said "What do you mean you lose yourself?"
It was then I realized that I haven't lost myself, I've just gained a lot that I've never really had before.
A loving relationship, a fun group of friends, a job with people I enjoy working with and a family that doesn't really understand some of my problems but are always there to listen.

All of these things, these people are a part of me, therefore I have not "lost myself", I just need time to myself to evaluate things going on in my life and where I am at in my life.

 It was a tough couple of days but I've, once again, battled my way through the walls I put up and was forced out of my comfort zone to open up.
I will try not keep everything bottled up until I shut down and eventually let it all out at once anymore.
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Windy Walk

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Hello World

I checked my last post and it was that awful "vlog".
Aghh, I wish I could say I'll never do that again but I must.
I need to practice speaking and being on camera.
That being said, I love my acting class.  Love, love, love.  Even though I think I am terrible, I still enjoy myself. I'm trying to be better!  Which may be my problem.

Took a picture of myself to see if I looked any older.

Last week I turned the big 2-4.
Yep, that's right I am old now.  I use eye cream and anti-wrinkle cream (partially true) and I go to bed at 9:30pm (very true).
Funny story, I was looking at the face cream at the store today and realized there were 5 ladies with white hair checking out the same cream.
This proves I am an old woman at heart.

My birthday was quiet, which is relaxing considering last year was probably the best and possibly craziest birthday ever (that's not including my 7th birthday where I invited my whole grade one class).
I worked, which oddly I don't mind working on my birthday, then I went to the bakery (I seem to be making it a weekly thing now.  Plus I fit in with the older crowd.)
After my wonderful shrimp croissant I went and had a piercing done.

I have a habit, I need to quit, of making my own birthday cake. 
It is always frustrating and never turns out how I want it to, so I've decided I'm no longer making my own birthday cake.
Unless I really, really want to.

My family and The Boy went out for dinner and that was pretty much the end of my birthday.
But I did receive a bottle of cherry whiskey (random) from my old man friend and a rubber ball band starter kit from a friend at work.

That was the birthday :)
Oh and if you love Hello Kitty or strawberry scented things, get Dial foam soap with Hello Kitty on it. Smells so good!
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Please Ignore How Awkward I Am

And please ignore the zit on my forehead.
Thanks :)
Besides loving Meryl I also loved her speech.
The End
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It's Oscar Night!

Well, I didn't keep up with my goal of blogging everyday this week.
But in my defense I was busy going to the gym, running errands and having some fun with friends.
It's Oscar night!
My favorite night of the year.
But it seems every couple of years my birthday or my Mom's lands on Oscar night, or we're celebrating late/early.
Tonight is one of those nights.
So while I get to watch all of the red carpet, I will miss the entire show.
And Billy Crystal is hosting!  

So far my favorite dress is Rooney Mara (girl crush!) in Givenchy.

But I also love Michelle Williams dress and Octavia Spencer's.
I'll recap tomorrow as I usually do.

I'm going to take it as a good sign that I start my acting classes the day after The Academy Awards :)
Wish me luck tomorrow!
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Another day, Another blog

I'm doing quite well, if I do say so myself.
I'm working up the courage to post a "vlog".
I've made at least 10 today and I just keep deleting them because I'm so awkward and weird and I keep looking at the camera.  I even made a joke about how "vlog" is my virgin log.  Yeah, I know...
Nerves.

If nervous in my own room with just my ipod and I, how do I expect to get up in front of 12 people next week when I start acting class?!
It shall be an adventure.

Today I decided to take my boy on a date.
As much as he didn't want me to pay, I took control and did.
Why should guys have to pay all the time? I like to take my boy out once and awhile too :)
We had dinner and saw the movie "Contraband", he insisted on at least paying for the movie.

Tomorrow's Goals:
-Work out after breakfast
-Work on the scrapbook
-Clean my bedroom

I'm keeping the goals easy as I have to....work at night.
That was meant to be dramatic because I never work in the evening.

Goodnight :)
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In My Efforts To Blog More...

I feel like I should make goals for this week but then again I never seem to complete them.
I have 4 big ones I would like to accomplish though:
1. Work out everyday. I feel like if I take a rest day it becomes more than one. I'll rest Saturday.
2. Eat clean! Not counting today when I consumed one too many cookies plus a donut. Oops!
3. Blog everyday.
4. Finish the book I am currently "reading".
*Bonus Goal* Update my blog layout!  Yay!


As for my fitness and health routine lately....
I finally started working out again this past week.
I waited so long because I was scared to get sick again; it seems like every time I start running again I get sick.
I need to only eat cookies if they are homemade, but also pace myself (I have a weakness for cookies).
Working out makes me feel so much better, my adrenaline gets going and I can't help but smile.

I feel like this post is lame, but I am committed to my goals!
Now I will go eat a clean dinner and then workout.
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Inspired On A Sunday

Have you ever just felt so inspired you feel like you could do anything and make it wonderful?
I have inspiration just bursting through my chest right now.
I feel like I could go for a walk and take amazing pictures.
I feel like I could write a book; I used to write all the time and I'm beginning to miss it.
I feel like the scrapbook I'm working on is the most creative thing I've done (it's not.)
I feel like I could paint the kitchen and have my parents love it.
I feel like I could redesign my room.

I just feel very inspired today.

I have a writer friend (who I hope will let me shine a spotlight on her and write a post about her soon) and I was reading some of her articles today; she's funny, sarcastic and honest.
It's rare that I read something that makes me laugh out loud or feel so inspired as I do right now.
It's uplifting after being bummed after just realizing you can't afford the perfect apartment (brick building overlooking the ocean, the best reading nooks, natural lighting and stained glass windows)

Today I will do things that make me feel like an artist.
I will work on the scrapbook, I will write future blog posts (because I tend to forget what I want to write once I log in), I will go for a walk and I will plan what color to paint the kitchen.

Oh yes, and I will learn how to do html and write more to improve my blog.

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7 Lovely Things

 

 The card I made for The Boy.

 My new hat.

Valentine's Day dinner.

 

 Chinese Laundry shoes.

2 more purchases I didn't need.

Hi, I would like this to be my kitchen please.

I hope everyone had a lovely Valentine's Day, whether you're coupled up or not.

I had a fantastic afternoon taking myself to see "The Vow".

My advice: Go to a movie alone.

Seriously.  It is the best time :) I plan on making it a monthly date, as long as there are movies I would like to see.

I told my parents this and they replied with "Only on Tuesdays right?"

"You bet."

Tuesdays movies are like six bucks compared to the regular ten or eleven.

After my movie The Boy and I had a fantastic sushi dinner and then a piece of cappuccino fudge cheesecake.

I've started learning how to scrapbook.  My gosh there's so much organizing to do; I have a week to finish it! I know what I'll be doing all weekend.

Have a good one!

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Cake, Chicken, Cupcakes and Carnivores

Valentine's Day is almost here and some friends and I have made a cake!

Yes there is a lot of pink and yes my hands are still tinged from the dye.
I really think we need to create a business or something.

So I finally got back into running today.  It feel so great :)  I feel like myself again.

 The boy and I made these chicken gyros last weekend.

Seriously delicious.  The chicken and tzatziki is really good in a salad as well.

I am currently obsessed with tzaziki! 

 Then I decided to try out vegan cupcakes.

I didn't use the frosting recipe provided but they were still amazing.

Seriously the best chocolate cake I have ever had.

The Boy and I tried out a new burger place this week, along with my brother and his girlfriend.

I pretty much had the ultimate meat burger, and I'm not even a big meat eater. But the doctor said my B12 is low so I was like "Hey I'm gonna eat the meatiest thing I can find!"

It was a hamburger patty topped with pulled pork, bacon and oh why not throw a tomato slice on there as well.

It was so filling I had Boyfriend eat a couple bites and I couldn't even finish my salad.

My week was rather fantastic and I hope yours was too!

Have a fabulous weekend :)

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Happy Early Valentine's Day!