I was going to write blahblahblah New Moon stuff but I won't. Mainly because my brain is being stupid and turning to mush as I write this.
You know what is hard work? Trying to not develop a crush on someone.
I met them once. Pathetic, I know. But how are you supposed to get rid of the feelings. The answer: You can't and that sucks big time.
And I, being a girl and everything, want to anaylyze every single thing. The touch to my shoulder, the little games we played to keep us busy, how he grabbed my hand to show me something...I'm a girl, it's what we do. But I am stopping this ridiculous cycle, for me, right now. I will not be an analyzer because I just feel pathetic and ashamed when I do.
This really doesn't make sense. I am a cynical person when it comes to this stuff. Everything is just confusing and I don't know where I stand right now.