I am in a bad mood and I am stressed...and frustrated. And all of this makes me restless.
It's not a pleasant feeling.
What I'm in a bad mood over is ridiculous. Completely ridiculous.
So I went to the mall and finally the two cds I want were there.
See I have this problem with going into HMV and they have cds 2 for $20 (I only buy cds when they are $10 each by the way) but usually one of the cds I want is never there (Metric's 'Fantasies' or Florence + The Machines's 'Lungs')
Today, both of those albums were there.
But then this silly girl went into her purse and realized that she left her bank card in her sweater pocket when she bought gas. She left her sweater on her bed.
She only had five bucks in her wallet. Enough to buy shave gel but she was too depressed to go and buy some.
Before all of that happened she went to Winners and tried on two dresses. She loved the skirt of one of them so much. It had alternate layers of tiger print and black chiffon. Except when she went to put it on the stupid elastic waist was too high and made her look stumpy and apple shaped. These dresses are made for shorter people. I am bummed.
Stupid reasons to be bummed, I know.
And I'm stressed because I want to apply to film school and have found two to apply to. Except I'm nervous out of my mind and I need to apply by something like October 20th.
I never get nervous like this. And this is just thinking about applying. It hurts my chest and makes me want to cry and throw up.
I need to get reference letters and make an audition tape.
I'm nervous about the audition tape and I don't even have to do it in front of anyone!
It's just, I have done any acting in so long and whenever I try I do worse, so I need to remember to act natural and not force it.
Writing that kind of eased the tension.
Next week I'll go talk to my drama teacher from high school, ask for a reference and what I should do for an audition. Tomorrow I'll get some acting books at the library.
I'm also starting up my exercising again :) Except I keep eating tortilla chips and salsa when I'm not hungry....guilty
That's the part that bothers me, is that I eat when I'm not even hungry.
I don't really eat bad, I just need to know the difference between when I'm hungry and when I need some quality H20.
Have a wonderful weekend full of gorgeous fall colors :)
P.S. I'm thinking of getting a tiny heart tattoo on my pointer finger.