Monday, April 2, 2012
Just turn that frown upside down.
Sometimes I feel bad for not blogging, I'm sure I'm not the only one, but then I remember that I blog for me.
I do try to keep up with other people's blogs as often as possible.
It feels like this small community and while I'm not entirely close or exchange weekly emails with some of you, /i still feel like I have friends in different parts of the world.
I don't really know where I am going with this, but let me just say that no, I did not drop off the face of the Earth these past few weeks.
Sometimes I just get into funks and I need to take a break from everything and focus on myself again.
I lose myself often.
I lose myself in my relationship, in my social life, in my family and in my work.
But while having a heart to heart with The Boy a couple week back, I explained this to him and he said "What do you mean you lose yourself?"
It was then I realized that I haven't lost myself, I've just gained a lot that I've never really had before.
A loving relationship, a fun group of friends, a job with people I enjoy working with and a family that doesn't really understand some of my problems but are always there to listen.
All of these things, these people are a part of me, therefore I have not "lost myself", I just need time to myself to evaluate things going on in my life and where I am at in my life.
It was a tough couple of days but I've, once again, battled my way through the walls I put up and was forced out of my comfort zone to open up.
I will try not keep everything bottled up until I shut down and eventually let it all out at once anymore.
Posted by S at 4:58 PM